I have never been a doctor person. By that I just mean, I don't go to doctors very often, sometimes not even when I should. Maybe because I have so many friends who are doctors LOL (if anyone of you read this, and I know you do, it isn't about you LOL "who is she talking about?")
I am so looking forward to Monday and getting an answer to all this pain. No matter what it is I know it will be correctable . Very few things aren't fixable. Rich asked me if Doc says surgery, will I do it. Normally I would contemplate that questions. At this stage, he can do it in his office without anesthesia for all I care. Not being able to walk properly is throwing my body off, my hip is hurting, my knee's are hurting and it's all because of this damned foot. Every step is like a lightening bolt shooting from my heal up the back of my leg and it's getting old, real fast.
I am trying hard to be aware of how pain can make me ugly. I'm trying to watch how I react to people, after all this isn't their fault or their pain.
The other night we had some friends over for dinner. The husband was standing by the table, I was looking right at him and saw the light go out..that fast, in a split second of time, even before I could react (although I did get up pretty fast) He fell like a stone, face forward. His face hit a glass on the table, which instead of breaking (Thank you so much GOD) just put a semi-circle cut between his eyes. he also sustained a fat lip but no broken teeth, again very amazing. (I truly believe my house is filled with positive energy) he was fine two minutes later. I asked what day it was, what year it was and who the president was. Rich had him squeezing fingers and we checked his pupils. he was fine. Refused the hospital, but did go to the doctor the next morning and test are being run.
I think it hit all of us, because we all thought the same thing...That he had simply keeled over and died. Of course we were all happy that wasn't the case, but the thought was enough to be un settling. For me it was a smack of reality as to how life can change in a heart beat. I said a prayer of thanks that the glass did not break..we all discussed how tragic the situation COULD have been.
Life is so very fragile. One second can change things forever...Live every moment in happiness, because you never know....
