For those of you who think I am "always up" "always positive" "always smiling"...This is a day for you ....LOL (crap I wasn't supposed to laugh or smile)
I am NOT an idiot!! I may not have the education that some people have, but I'm not stupid!!
My grammar sucks even if I did get straight A's in English. I don't use spell check, which may or may not be obvious, so even though I won many a Spelling Bee's and Scrabble Tournaments, you WILL find misspelled words. I am not a typist, never wanted to be either , so look for typo's, they are there for you to find. I make mistakes, I've made some HUGE ones, I take full responsibility for my life.
In short I'm not perfect....Are you? Do you think you are? When I have issues with someone, I talk to them in person, face to face and in most cases resolve those issues before they fester into something greater. If you are my "friend" you need to know...I will not lie to you, I will not walk on egg shells to preserve your feelings. I certainly won't hurt you deliberately but I will find a way to "tell it like it is" as kindly as possible. DO NOT look for hidden agenda's in anything I may write...again...if I have something to say to you personally, I'll say it...trust me on that.
I understand people have bad days, people can easily miss understand the written word for lack of affect or they can transfer an anger because they are dealing with sensitive issues they just can't wrap there mind around. Don't kill the messenger simple because she delivers something you don't want to deal with.
No I do not have a degree...But I do have life's experience, lots of life experience...I also have an extremely analytical mind and I READ people very well, for the most part. I am intuitive, logical and caring...That combination can cause me a great amount of pain and often does.
I can not watch someone suffer, emotionally, physically or both, without trying to help heal them.
It's in my nature, I cannot change who I am, nor do I want to.
I have held my own through a tumultuous life and I have survived. I'm proud of that survival, I'm proud of who I am . I have succeeded at anything I've put my mind to, including several successful businesses. I have been told to learn the word "NO", some of us CAN'T say "NO" to someone in need...I am one of those people. I have been accused of trying too hard to make people like me...NEWS FLASH!!! I don't give a flying rats ass who likes me and who doesn't and I have felt that way since childhood...because people I loved betrayed me, so I learned very early in life not to trust and not to CARE who liked me...but that doesn't mean I can't give, it doesn't mean I can't share and it sure as hell doesn't mean I can't care...But again, there is no hidden agenda or need on my part to be loved by all who touch my life...I am loved my many, I am also loathed...That's life...You cannot please all of the people all of the time. I pity those who try.
My life's goal is to make a difference. How I make that difference is MY CHOICE. If you don't approve, I don't care, it's not your life. If you are one of those who write to me and one that holds me in high esteem...I thank you. If I have made a difference in your life...I treasure you, because you ARE my goal.
Everyone, no matter how thick skinned they are has to, at times, let off steam and clear the air.
I just did...If you're still reading and smiling...You get me!!! Thank you!!
