A New Journey: 06/01/09

Monday, June 1, 2009

A Time to Reflect

It has taken me a few days to come here. I have been lost in thought and dealing with a situation in the only way I know how...staying busy.
On Friday we went to see the Cardiologist for the results of Richards stress test. The news was not what we had hoped for...instead we were told that the vessels feeding the heart muscle itself appear to not be functioning properly. An angiogram is necessary and the doctor is almost certain that one of three things will follow...stints, angioplasty or open heart surgery. My more dear Richard...the color left his face and it was certain he was scared to death. I think the doctor, who is a wonderful man, saw this and tried to set his mind at ease....We all know someone who has had this procedure...I've had two angiograms myself...But Rich has never been ill enough to require any surgical procedure. He is also someone that always sees the cup half empty, he is convinced that he takes after his mothers side of the family (he looks like that side) and no one in that family lived past 66...Rich is 65.
I do not like those thoughts and I've spent a life time trying to dispel them..He has been my rock, though every illness and every bump in the road we've faced as a couple...he has never lost faith in me. Now the rolls are reversed, now he looks to me for strength and only now do I realize that being a ROCK is not an easy job... Most people see ME as the strong one ...Rich and I know that together we are strong (that's a line from OUR SONG "Through The Years") We've always been a team.
I am as positive as he is negative and you'd think after 45 years, he'd realize my attitude works better LOL Someone will always be there to judge you wrongly, rain on your parade and hurt you...but if you see the silver lining, try and find good in the bad...life's crap just seems to roll right off you. Strength comes easy.....
Tomorrow I go for my endoscopy, they have to keep an eye on that Barretts Esophogus...I'm sure all will be fine. Thursday Rich will go for his procedure and he will be fine as well.
He has supported me throughout this Journey and because of that I am stronger and healthier then I have been in years...so now is my time to be his ROCK and I'm up for it....
Prayers and positive thoughts are always welcome.....

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In Memory of a Great Lady

You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Tour heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone.
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back
or you can do what she'd want;
smile, open your eyes , love and go on....

RAINBOW BRIDGE

There is a bridge connecting heaven and earthIt is called Rainbow Bridge because of its many colours
Just this side of the Rainbow Bridge there is a land of meadows,hills, valleys with lush green grass
When a beloved pet dies, the pet goes to this special placeThere is always food and water and warm spring weather
The old and frail are young againThose who are maimed are made whole again
They play all day with each otherThere is only one thing missing
They are not with their special person who loved them on EarthSo each day they run and play until the day comeswhen one suddenly stops playing and looks up !
The nose twitches ! The ears are up !The eyes are staring !And this one suddenly runs from the group !
You have been seen, and when you and your special friend meet,you take him or her into your arms and embraceyour face is kissed again and again,and you look once more into the eyes of your trusting pet
Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together, never again to be separated

ONE Can Make a Difference

One song can spark a moment,One flower can wake the dream.One tree can start a forest,One bird can herald spring.One smile begins a friendship,One handclasp lifts a soul.One star can guide a ship at sea,One word can frame the goalOne vote can change a nation,One sunbeam lights a roomOne candle wipes out darkness,One laugh will conquer gloom.One step must start each journey.One word must start each prayer.One hope will raise our spirits,One touch can show you care.One voice can speak with wisdom,One heart can know what's true,One life can make a difference,You see, it's up to you!
K.M.

My Tarot Card symbol

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

He was just a little boy, On a week's first day. Wandering home from Bible school, And dawdling on the way. He scuffed his shoes into the grass; He even found a caterpillar. He found a fluffy milkweed pod, And blew out all the 'filler.' A bird's nest in a tree overhead, So wisely placed up so high.. Was just another wonder, That caught his eager eye. A neighbor watched his zig zag course, And hailed him from the lawn; Asked him where he'd been that day And what was going on. 'I've been to Bible School ,' He said and turned a piece of sod. He picked up a wiggly worm replying, 'I've learned a lot about God.' 'M'm very fine way,' the neighbor said, 'for a boy to spend his time.' 'If you'll tell me where God is, I'll give you a brand new dime.' Quick as a flash the answer came! Nor were his accents faint. 'I'll give you a dollar, Mister,If you can tell me where God ain't.'......

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Monday, June 1, 2009

A Time to Reflect

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